My mom's surgery is tomorrow!!! I am a little on the edge. Mainly because I know SHE is nervous. I am going to head home for Saturday and get back here Sunday. Things seem to being going in slow motion Again....

My auntie Yvonne will be in town and so will my cuz Yvette. So that will be fun
ha.
It is amazing how circumstance bring people together.

Studio is going. I don't think I will ever look on the project fondly. I will most likely block it out.

Oh today I was listening to other peoples' music on i-tunes AND it was really funny because I saw this song and I was like "hey I have that song too..." (not many people have the song on i-tunes.) then there was another one that I have.. I then looked over at the album name.... "Making Me Smile" hmmm.... Yeah That is mine!!! I guess I am not the only one who thinks that is an AWESOME compilation!!!

Last night I bought a bass guitar. I have had it for two years... Well I finally paid for it and now I have the amp on loan. It is a really nice amp... I want to buy it. MAYBE! Oh yeah... :)

Back to the work life.

QD:What would be your dream vacation?

Sometimes I feel like this cat... the orange one!

Rollerblading Rocks!

I had a chance to go rollerblading with my friends: Lacie and Molly! We were having fun. We took some pictures...

...Speaking of those pictures... ::: The shirt, Well... the "concerned students" should enjoy that! Smile!

Things are so much better! Today I installed 3D studio MAX! I am excited about learning more about this program!

I have had a really emotional few weeks... I am really not one to be an excessive crying fool, but I have not really been myself.

Back to reality!

My project could be going better. I should work on that too. Ha...

OH GOOD NEWS: CONGRATs to Jenny and her man!!! It is a gorgeous ring too. I am so excited for you!.. And yes you are special. ;)

.Whish me luck.

Today:

I am headed back to school, which means the good news is my mom is going to be alright for the time being!! She has a Low Grade cancer that is operable. This means that it is not as fatal as first described! The surgery is major. They will be taking out 2/3rds of her pancreas, spleen, and some lymph-nodes (leaving her with a good chance of diabetes). There will be a 10 day stay in the hospital after that and 6 week recovery at home, BUT this should eliminate the Cancer! No Kemo (I don't know how to spell it)... yay! They said the chances of the cancer coming back are low. The road in front of her is going to be ruff, but it is so much better than what she was told at first!

My mom said with a huge smile while we were all sitting eating...
"I never thought I would be so excited about get diabetes, but compared it to death!"

HAPPY EASTER!!!

I am in St. Charles. I arrived about 4 am this morning. I am really tiered, but I am sick too. We went to visit family and I watched the cardinals game (Fun game). They won: 6 to 5. I don't think I ever want to be an umpire... In the game the first basemen plowed into the ump while he was trying to pick up a foul ball. It was quite dramatic.

Well, Tomorrow we are all going into the doctor... I am really nervous. I have Structure to figure out so I am distracting myself with that! WOW... I really am behind in structures. Oh well.

Bye for now.

well... I don't know what to do!

I never thought I would have to deal with worrying about my Dad: My MOM is always there for him... I don't know what is going to happen in the next year or few, but I only hope I can live up to my name.

My Mom is very sick. It came really fast and at this point I don't know how quick or serious it is. She has a cancerous tumor on her pancreas. The surgery to eliminate this evil little thing is not an easy one. On Monday we find out more! I have thought about not going to work (cali) this summer. I don't know as of yet... But I rather this happen to me than her... SHE has worked her fingers to the bone and deserves to enjoy being a grandma.

QD:Why?

Well. I didn't get a lot of sleep last night. I was really depressed. I talked to my mom and she sounded as thought the doctors tortured her. And she could not handle it anymore. We don't find out what this lump is in her stomach is until tomorrow. I know I shouldn't think about the different possibilities, but I cannot stop them running through my head. Over and over and over... I want to just cry...

my project is going well. I enjoy this semester a lot so far as studio goes. I am just a bit distracted right now because of the depression thing. I will get over it....

QD:If beauty is relative HOW would you know if you are really ugly or not?